I’m not sure how I got there (which is funny considering what I’m going to talk about), but I was just reading about the book Up From Dragons on Wikipedia, and it led me to the “bootstrapping paradox,” where a person, place, or thing gives rise to its own creation. Naturally, it shows up a lot in time-travel fiction.

One of the problems with trying to say that “X created Y,” is you’re left with where X came from — causality would tell you that X must have come from something else. Working your way back through the alphabet, you wind up with A, but you’re left with the question of where A came from — bootstrapping might be saying it came from Z.

Maybe this answers the questions you needed answered, but there’s still a nagging doubt as to why now. Maybe A came from Z, but what started the cycle? Where did it first initiate? When was the first loop? That’s the “why now” of why now. Why, of all times and spaces, did A start now, or otherwise lead to now?

One possible answer to that question isn’t just “because,” but rather, “it didn’t.” As in, there isn’t a “now,” exactly, but rather, it is always now. It’s always always. A didn’t just start once, but is always starting. There wasn’t a once, but rather, an always. A is always beginning, always leading to B, and so on, and all at the same time.

The question then, as to why we don’t see all of it at once might be explained with a comparison to why you shut your eyes when looking into a bright light — there’s too much light for your eyes to take in all at once. Mortal minds and senses are only capable of processing and storing so much information at once.

There is quite literally too much of everything.

I’ll have to come back to this thought once I’ve had time to chew on it. I’m also going to have to go back and reread the bootstrapping paradox to make sure I understood it, and I’m not just pulling things out of the aether.