This morning I noticed a very strange disharmony in my thinking and feeling. I woke up very alert, and remained so as I showered and dressed, and commuted to work. Alert, thinking, interested int things, and both formulating and developing ideas. I noticed a sharp decline immediately after arriving at work, maybe in combination with opening my Internet browser. I started to feel slow, torpid. Uninterested. Uninteresting.

I’ve almost recovered by this point, but it was really weird to feel and experience this so fully. I’m sure this isn’t the first time it’s happened, since things happen all the time, I mean, it’s unlikely that because it’s the first time I’ve noticed it, it’s the first time it’s happened. Of course, it’s also possible that there’s enough wrongness to the feeling that I noticed it right away. Who knows? Anyway…

I have a suspicion. I occasionally take a melatonin supplement to ease into sleep and wake up feeling more refreshed. Over the last few years, I’ve become more sensitive to the feeling of a chemical effect entering or leaving my system, and I wonder if the sluggishness I felt as I sat down at work this morning was the last traces of the melatonin leaving my system. I can’t be sure, obviously, but it’s certainly a possibility.